5. "since then i’ve had the chance in the world of mathematics that bid me welcome, to meet quite a number of people, both among my “elders” and among young people in my general age group who were more brilliant, much more ‘gifted’ than i was. i admired the facility with which they picked up, as if at play, new ideas, juggling them as if familiar with them from the cradle–while for myself i felt clumsy, even oafish, wandering painfully up an arduous track, like a dumb ox faced with an amorphous mountain of things i had to learn (so i was assured) things i felt incapable of understanding the essentials or following through to the end. indeed, there was little about me that identified the kind of bright student who wins at prestigious competitions or assimilates almost by sleight of hand, the most forbidding subjects."

zaman-zaman hər kəsin türklər demiş divara tosladığı və bütün motivasiyasını itirdiyi dönəmləri olur. amma keçir. keçməlidir. zaman-zaman gücsüz, bacarıqsız və məğlub hiss edirik. təəssüf ki. insan beyninin bir oyunudur bu da. amma keçir. keçməlidir.