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spending your night in the toilet seat puking makes you realize things, like why are you actually there.
what did go wrong
do you still drink for fun or is it a pain killer

having a lot in my mind I think I've been detached from every conversation that I have daily. keeping everything on a small talk level and not wanting to carry on. already guessing how every conversation will continue.

been trying to move from boston or even usa but can't decide and can't get over it. makes you live in a split world.

and the reason I'm writing this here is cus, guess why, 2020 was the most increased demand year for therapists. if you don't have a therapist, internet is your friend to shitpost, cus that's what you do with therapy, you shitpost your ideas. and pay someone to listen.

-sin cerely from a k hole